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lomileage5 68M
10248 posts
1/29/2015 3:38 pm

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luvexotic 62M

1/29/2015 3:38 pm

Being alone, I think the fear is less, but then having a significant other in your life can also give you someone to comfort you and help alleviate the fear quicker also. But then that is just my humble opinion.

My thoughts and prayers go out to you as well


ironman2769 58M  
12877 posts
1/29/2015 3:39 pm

I have my fingers crossed and prayers that it's not any thing serious......

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sexysixties2 106F
39750 posts
1/29/2015 3:40 pm

Sending you all the love and prayers I possibly can my friend.

I am the sort who prefers to face my fears alone. When I was really ill almost 5 years ago I told no one until I was safely in a hospital bed and on the mend. I can cope better if I don't have to see their worried faces. In fact to this day none of the grandkids even know I was in hospital.

Just know that you are never alone here.


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~~Anais Nin~~


sicnarf40 60M
30 posts
1/29/2015 3:45 pm

you are much better with people around you to help you through your fears.... just what I think. Hoping for the best for you.


sphxdiver 74M
21063 posts
1/29/2015 3:48 pm

My heart goes out to you.

I too have both parent's alive and just a phone call away, we stay in constant contact, but i get real uneasy every time the phone rings and their number comes up on the caller ID, cause you just never know.

Try to stay positive and focused, and my thoughts are with you.


myelin36 53F
3612 posts
1/29/2015 4:04 pm

Missk I am sorry that this is all occurring simultaneously. It is important that you sit with your thoughts. Journal about your feelings if necessary to prevent internalizing them. Seek out an understanding friend that is a good listener. Having someone to talk to can be a source of comfort and strength. Fact gather before allowing your thoughts to drift to the extreme and know that we are here and we care. I am an email away if you'd like to talk or vent.

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DrDomenow5 64M  
38 posts
1/29/2015 4:07 pm

Prayers to you and your family. I hope all goes well. It's very hard to watch our parents get old.


pal334 69M  
45821 posts
1/29/2015 4:20 pm

My best wishes. Being alone is rough. Make sure you keep a routine, don't skip meals etc, it is easy to do. Stay in contact with that friend and chat as often as you can. wishing you the best

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daVinci58 65M
1364 posts
1/29/2015 4:35 pm

Prayers and thoughts to you and your family... Lean on those who are close for support and comfort... Best wishes for your parents and you and take care...


veryfunnycple64 60M/60F
21770 posts
1/29/2015 4:59 pm

fear is from inside of us....the unknown, the uncontrollable, and the what ifs! I hope all works out for you...I am glad you are leaning on your friend that is how you alleviate fear by leaning on others!

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rm_rakehell500 70M
4241 posts
1/29/2015 5:00 pm

Even though I went through hell and have never been the same person since, I would not have had Sarah be alone when she found out about the brain tumor. I would not have had her alone in the hospital or the ICU after surgery, I would not have had her die alone without my hand on hers even though it nearly killed me and I likely would have killed myself if the doctor hadn't kept me heavily doped for a month.

It was the worst six days of my life. The moment the doctor told us the worst moment I will ever experience and I knew then there was no real hope. I would have preferred they told me I was dying, I would have taken it all for her, save I would not have had her go through what I did. It actually took me a while to realize that last was selfish.

I understand about your parents, especially not wanting to bother them, but don't go through the scare alone if you can avoid it. I don't know about your daughter other than you are close, but do at least ask yourself would you have wanted your mother to hide something from you at that age. She could be hurt because you didn't tell her and let her help as well. It's all right to wait until you know more, but don't wait too long.

I had no time to prepare. It was there with no warning, and then it was over while I was still in shock processing what was happening. Suddenly is no way to deal with anything tough.

You don't have to be alone. If nothing else there are crisis lines that will let you talk and rant, cry and be mad. It's what they are there for, and they are there at three in the morning when no one else is. It isn't weakness to need a human voice when you are scarred in he middle of the night.

If there was anyway I'd give you my number and let you lay it all on my shoulders. They have to be that broad for a reason.

I wish I could be a shoulder for you, something to lean on. I hate that you are feeling isolated as much as I would hate to go through this with someone again, I would rather go through it than see someone like you go through it alone.

I tried it alone before I fell into the coma and after. I found some good people now and I know better. it is almost impossible for me to ask for help, but I've come farther than I ever expected in doing so., I do and can ask now.

By all means have the cry. You have every right to be scarred. Your friends here are scarred for you. Whatever the problem is I can almost guarantee there is some sort of support group for it you can turn to for both sympathy and good advice.

My cousin had lymphoma, her biggest mistake was she did not use the support system that was available.

I tend to go off and do the lone wolf thing. I can't recommend those quiet desperate nights of the soul. Anyway, who wants to be a mangy old wolf.

It's normal to be frightened, but it's too early for despair. Some things they move quickly on because there is something they can do.

I've been there when it feels like you cannot take one more thing. I've had that camel breaking straw land on my back. I've been strong when strong was the last thing in the world I wanted to be. And I don't mind admitting I've been frightened to death alone desperate and my heart breaking or already broken. I cried so much when Sarah died I cleared my sinuses and had not problem for nearly a year.

If nothing else rant rave and pretend like you have one of us in the room taking it out on us. They may be virtual, but there are a lot of arms holding you tonight wanting to do nothing but comfort you and remind you that you aren't completely alone.

Take care, Honey, we are all praying for and thinking of you.



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Tmptrzz 61F  
107039 posts
1/29/2015 5:22 pm

J..keeping you in my thought and prayers..I hope they just want to double check things and it's nothing serious..Hugs..

Seduce the mind and see what a wonderful adventure the body will take you on..


rm_rakehell500 70M
4241 posts
1/29/2015 5:45 pm

In some ways snapping might not be the worst thing.

After Sarah died I was in shock, and one day her ex called with some pointless BS thinking he could take advantage of her being gone to get something and I blew. I ended by telling him next time he saw me to walk on the other side of the street.

And for the first time in a month I was alive.

Plus I took it out on someone who deserved it.

Just don't take it out on anyone who can fire you.

Sometimes losing it is not as bad a strategy as you think. You may think if you let go you can never get back, but you can.

Get some rest. It may not be better in the morning, but it will be different.

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Borntobeefree72 51F
2596 posts
1/29/2015 6:23 pm

Sharing your fear with family can help if they are emotionally strong enough to give you the support you need. As a nurse I am going to give some unsolicited advice: Do not count your worries until you know the enemy you face. All the what its will drag you down.

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Dionysus14 61M
1185 posts
1/29/2015 6:23 pm

My thoughts and prayers are with you

the power of fear
can't cancel positive thoughts
best wishes and prayers

peace be with you...


gardenboy321 60M  
41936 posts
1/29/2015 6:33 pm

I think, if anything, having someone to lean on is much better than being alone. A good friend will give you strength, and support... not worry and fear.

Thoughts from the Garden...


rm_hunterswift2 110M
1144 posts
1/29/2015 7:03 pm

J, There is no need to worry about something that you are not sure about and is out of your control, it will only cause you stress that you don't need, when it comes time to get it checked out, then you can have your worry time, like, that day, until then, focus on lifes every day stuff and your mom and dad, let them know that your thinking about them, frequently, they heal faster if they know they are thought of in a caring way.
Jesus said, come to me all who are weary and I will give you rest.
That means, give the worry to him, it's not something you need.
keep your chin up pretty lady, it's just a bump in the road.
I'm praying for you.


mflater1 73M  
50414 posts
1/29/2015 7:12 pm

You are in my prayers.

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luvdch 75M  
356 posts
1/29/2015 11:05 pm

J- being alone at a time like this is not fun, need to be able to share - not just through a blog. Know that you have friends here who are concerned, know you will be in thought and prayer.


lindoboy100 61M
23969 posts
1/30/2015 2:11 am

Och, here's a wee scottish cuddle for ye McKiss, I hope things take a turn for the better soon!


cyclingfool 62M  
6666 posts
1/30/2015 6:32 am

J....

Just emailed you..
Luv u my friend...


topherific 61M
5209 posts
1/30/2015 7:16 am

hope all works out fairly!


anjaan58 62M
1347 posts
1/30/2015 9:13 am

I can understand hat you are going through ... Went through similar situation abt 2 yeas back .. both mom dad ... ill in hospital
Was fortunate had folks around me
But even in that crowd Felt very lonely and fearful
You will be in my prayers .. and and sure You will see this through
Don't fear fear .. combat it with prayers ...
My best wishes for you and prayers for your parents to get well soon


Penmiester1311 74M
5 posts
1/30/2015 11:59 am

I usually don't reply to posts, but in this case... I just HAVE to. First let me say that I have been through two wars and a shooting in my local post office. While this kind of fear is different, I can honestly say that I know exactly what you are now going through, and what you are about to go through. I say this because I also got the same call you just got. Fear is a normal feeling of out lives and everyone deals with it differently.

First, know that there are many people who love you. Also know that while you and I never met, know that I care about what you are going through and care about you as an individual.

Second, know that Friends do.... because they want to... not because you might think that they owe you. This comes with a warning.... some of your friends will actually become a pain in your ass LOL.... god love them.... and you will too. These poor people will try to "overdo" in an effort to show you how much they care. Some friends will almost disappear because they feel they have no ideas on how to help and support you. Just knowing that you can pick up the phone, day or night, will be of immense strength and comfort for you.

Once I got over the "why me" syndrome, I decided to look at the inner me, and found the strength and the stubbornness that we all need to overcome things in our lives. I just got really pissed off, and I managed to temporarily beat Agent Orange skin related cancers.

So I guess what I am saying is.... Get Pissed Off!! Find your inner self... find your strength... and begin your fight. Know that you are surrounded by friends... some lifetime friends... and some friends you never knew you had... lean on them, let them in your life and let them help..... find the strength and courage to ASK for help. You'll be amazed what happens next.

You are a loving person... know that you are loved, and many of us care.


MyNameIsKay 62F  
11887 posts
1/30/2015 9:32 pm

Oh my friend...I know the feeling, trust me I do. Don't go borrowing trouble...

And to have a partner there with you would lighten the load. I'm sorry you are alone. Truly sorry. But you are in my thoughts, and you will be fine. Love ya J...

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shy_lady4u 62F
254 posts
1/31/2015 4:26 am

Misskissin, I know I dont know you but reading the blogs I ran across this post. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I also work with energy and will send positive energy your way. Reading you are into accupuncture, I know of a healing website you can list your name on or names of your loved ones and you can get free healing sent to you for 2 weeks without any spam or junk. After the two weeks you can just list yourself again. I can tell when it starts and ends. I keep myself and my daughter on their regularly. I am learning that its ok and important to lean on others when we need to. We are not islands and we are all human and have needs. It's not easy I know but something I am working on. Blessings to you and yours.

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flaguy522 68M
1483 posts
1/31/2015 1:52 pm

MissK...I'm just catching up on the last two days. I'm so sorry that you have to go through all of this alone. I'm sure all the helpful and touching comments from your watchers help to ease things a bit. I do understand your fear but trusting in the power of prayer will give you strength. I am praying that you will be relieved from the stress you're going through right now. Stay positive. Lean on the people that love you to give you strength. Trust that everything will be OK. Take care. {{{{HUGS}}}}.


scottj55555 55M
1987 posts
2/2/2015 3:23 pm

So sorry to read about your Mom. You need to be optimistic for something good, but be prepared for something bad. Remember though, you have plenty of friends even if they're not right next to you.


scoupe42 60M

2/8/2015 7:12 am

have faith, and everything is in God's hands.


lkuwet 78M
288 posts
2/8/2015 8:42 pm

Fear can be overwhelmingly powerful and sharing one's fears can sometimes help ease the burden. Individuals are different in how they react to fear and sometimes it can make us stronger to endure it alone but perhaps there are times we ought not. To both feel alone in a situation and fearful is stressful so if sharing makes you feel better I think, why not share?

So take it a day-at-a-time or whatever system works to hold you together, focus as positively as possible regarding the waiting and tension. Call you doctor ask him to explain what the situation is about if he can/will. Prayer is also something you can do also to ease your burden.[post 3573111]


flirtyace2 48M
11 posts
2/11/2015 5:51 am

Stay strong and may GOD bless you!


TJinCT 45M  
11 posts
2/14/2015 1:04 pm

I'll most definitely keep you and your family in my prayers.


Knightryder6962 71M
2 posts
2/14/2015 1:59 pm

I've always found that humor can drive down fear, especially where one's health is concerned. Laughter does take our mind off that which can consume us with dread


LadyTeddieBear 66F  
1131 posts
2/15/2015 10:03 pm

I will keep you in my prayers .

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goldenrule102 63M
589 posts
2/16/2015 9:37 pm

Less if the fear is about my problems. Had a surgery on jan 14th on the 25th they went back in. I called my point of contact no one else. because I had no fear. These surgery's where serious. I just believe in something greater than me. So the fear of death really holds no grip on me. Anyway enough about me.

See I believe that one of the purposes in life is to love and be loved, To have soul mate to love and be loved back is a gift. If you love someone its a gift of love to aide your soulmate in time of need. with all that went on, think about it was love that got you threw it, love of mom, dad and sis. The love of family got you all you threw the ciris. I hold to the belief love overcomes all. I will write down your handle, keep it on my desks to remind me to pray for you.


ALANEE62 61F
171 posts
2/27/2015 8:21 am

I do not know you but I feel for you and my prayers are coming you way also. I believe in the power of prayers also. God speed.

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