Hi! Here's the truth. About 10 years ago, I made a terrible mistake with my wife (and no - it is not sex related (notti!) but money related) and she has never really forgiven me about me. I have tried my best to do everything (well, almost :)) to win back my wife and relationship. It has never been that way again. Even in sex, I am giving but not receiving anymore. We are not communicating any more. It is very sad that I actually tend to find out stuff about my wife's intentions through our friends when we have a gathering. Yes, (if you thinking), written letters and emails to her, leave notes, txts - nothing. No reaction! I do know she doesn't even open my emails to read. So yeah... Yes, I'm hurt, drained and just tired. I guess we are still together cos of the s. I dread the day when they all grow and I have nothing to say to my wife any more......

My Ideal Person I really do not know. Someone that is kind and understands what I'm going through? Maybe a good friend that can share my deep dark secrets and will not judge me for who/what I am? Maybe enjoying each other's companionship and maybe, being naughty here & there? Maybe I'm asking too much.... but it's a long shot and I hope she's out there some where....