Attitudes

Ever since I have had the option to do whatever I want with other men and not necessarily need hubbys permission I have felt a shift in his behaviour and have noticed he is becoming more affectionately attentive.

We have recently gone through some changes and it feels like hubby is much more the willing cuck than the dominant manipulator although he is still very persuasive by indirectly influencing my decisions.

I recently came home from this guys place wreaking of his cologne and I'm certain he did that intentionally. It was late evening when I finally arrived home and I knew hubby would be waiting up for me watching television which meant I would have to sneak past him to get to the bedroom where I could shower and I was worried what hubby would say if he smelt the cologne all over me.

I am still finding it difficult not to feel guilty about fucking other men without hubbys expressed permission because to me it feels like I'm cheating on him. I always go home feeling quite ashamed and dirty although hubby hasn't said anything negative about me doing this it still doesn't feel right to me and that does play on my mind.

I now often find myself in bed with hubby awake when I should be asleep feeling so horribly ashamed at the things I've done that day with other men when I feel I should be doing these things with hubby.

I had been at this guys place but I told hubby I was going to be at the gym. He saw me walk out in my gym clothes but I didn't get home again for a few hours after I was supposed to be back and I am certain my guilt is easily seen upon my face.

I was only supposed to be there for about half an hour but when I arrived this guy had two friends there and instead of leaving when I arrived they decided to stay. He lives in a one bedroom apartment so it's hard to ignore them and once they saw me in my gym gear they had no intention of leaving.

I have seen this guy a number of times before and I must confess as a person he is a complete pig of a man. He's in his thirties, treats me like dirt and loves being disrespectfully vigorous when using me but he does have a really nice sizeable penis which not only looks good but also feels great and he lasts! So, when he summons me I always end up going to him.

The second I walked into the apartment I knew his friends were wanting to fuck me and I should have walked straight out again but I didn't. Instead, I played the submissive innocent because in this game of being the sluttish cheating wife I always do what men want me to do and once I decided to stay they didn't waste any time.

I always cast my mind back to a conversation hubby and I had when we agreed to try this new arrangement. He said he was happy for me to make my own choices but I could never refuse what men wanted no matter how difficult or weird things became for me. I always think of this when I'm with other men and I do as hubby asked letting men do anything they want with me. In a way, to me, it feels like I'm still hubbys slave wife doing exactly what he wants me to do for him which in this strange way feels comforting to me.

I stood there just inside the front door looking at them slowly looking me up and down. I could see it in their eyes that they had been wanting to fuck me for awhile.

I had sent this guy several pictures of myself in compromising situations with other men and he had obviously shared these with his friends. I occasionally do that but it always ends up creating problems for me because I am so easily controlled which inevitably ends up with me being coerced into doing things for men and sometimes those things can be extremely risky for me but I will do them anyway.

They didn't say anything and just left me standing there while they poured themselves a drink but didn't offer me one.

I didn't know what to do and felt a bit uneasy like I was being viewed as sexual meat for them to use in their own individual time. My sex friend went and sat down on the couch and in this authoritative tone told me to kiss his dirty dick. I went to him and kneeling on the floor in front of him I slipped his sweat pants down past his knees and as I did his beautiful rock hard rigid cock sprung up almost hitting me in the face.

As I was told I started to kiss the underside of his cock pressing my lips against the soft firmness of his meat and looking up at him asking if I was being a good girl. I do crave the reassurance of praise and it does make me feel special and more than content to do more for men even if they are abruptly dismissive of my value like this guy always is toward me. He will fuck me then ignore me speaking to me like my presence is an annoyance for him and tells me to fuck off once he is done with me.

His two friends slowly approached me from behind until they were both caressing my protruding poised ass then slipped my leggings down just past my naughty naked pussy and both started to finger fuck me from behind. I'm not sure why but I felt excitedly nervous and couldn't stop smiling. My skin felt super tingly and my pussy was instantly wet. It felt like I had just peed myself and I hadn't even been fucked yet!

I was being coyly obedient to everything they wanted me to do for them and they both frequently swapped with each other to stretch my pussy from behind with their cocks while I continued to kiss my boyfriends cock who was still sitting on the couch.

I just closed my eyes enjoying the stimulation of feeling their touch upon my body. The moistness of my sensationally wet pussy with their two cocks slipping in and out and up and down over my pussy slit stimulating my clitoris was amazingly sensuous.

The sex was slow and deliberate as if they didn't want to come to quickly and they kept talking about me as if I wasn't even there saying that they couldn't believe how good my gaping stretched pussy looked from behind.

I hadn't planned to fuck his two friends that night but I just couldn't say no especially after the way they looked at me when I first arrived. So many men have taken advantage of my weakness not to refuse in that way where they have set me up with friends but not asked beforehand knowing full well I find it so difficult to say no.

All three fucked me keeping me begging for more and more as they teased my senses into this sordid sexual behaviour of slavery to their cocks. They had quickly realised once I am aroused I find it very hard to stop until I am exhausted. Sex really can feel like an all consuming addiction to me sometimes and that is what gets me into so much trouble!

Hubby didn't stop me when I walked past him. He didn't say anything to me about being late home or about the cologne and the smell of sex that was so obviously all over me. He just waited until I had showered and gone to bed before he came to me.

In bed he lovingly held me kissed me and told me he loves me not asking for sex or lecturing about anything. He just seems to have completely accepted things as they are and perhaps is even enjoying it but I know hubby and can't help constantly wonder is this just all part of his game of manipulation?