My Thoughts This Week

I'm in Singapore this week. Here mainly for two interviews and to spend some time with Rene. Ok, mainly to spend time with Rene. The interviews were....set up so I'd have an official excuse to be here . I had one earlier this week and one is scheduled for tomorrow. It was supposed to be today but I pushed it back cos....ok. To be honest, what i really want is to take a short break. I feel a little...worn out. Like I've been sapped of energy from work, if that makes sense. Although I also think that, IF i take that break, it might end up being difficult to get back into it. SO yeah, that's one quandary to deal with.

Curveball? Why not. Rene also offered me a job. He started his own agency midway through this year and he's looking for someone to help him with the business side of things. What he's offering is decent, but uh...that's not the main issue. You know how they say, " don't work with friends or family cos it might sour the relationship?" Yeah. That's what I'm half worried about. On the flipside, I'm also worried we won't get much work done. LOL. We are physically, very attracted to each other. That's putting it mildly.

I got in on Monday morning and uh...i'm ashamed to admit, I've been violating that poor guy. Ok, not poor guy. He's more than a willing participant. BUt i find it very hard to control myself when I see him sprawled out in bed naked. I've been tugging, sucking, stroking, riding and using his dick to slap all parts of me the whole week. LOL. And biting. I didn't think I was that much of a biter, but I've been leaving bite marks on his chest, back and shoulders too. LOL

I also, did not realize how much of an ass man he is. He's been burying his face in my ass, and that has become the default way he wakes me up in the morning. Like, entire face shoved in between my ass cheeks. LOL.

Unfortunately, this shop is now shut. We've been having a bit too much anal sex the last few days. I'm saying, a few times a day, 3 days running. My ass is sore. Like, really. Like so much so, I cancelled my day today so i won't have to go out. Cos I'm walking funny. Like...sore. :/
As willing as I am, and as much as i enjoy it, even with tons of lube, having something the size of a maglite up your ass a few times a day is.....taxing. LOL Ok, sorry. Too much info

Also, I find myself missing Caleb. A week is a bit too short a time to spend with him. Every single time I'm about to meet him, I alway think it's bit of a drag, and even dread it a little. Like, what the fuck am I to do with a 19-year-old for a week? Then when we meet, especially towards the end of our time together, it gets really enjoyable. We spent a week togather in HK last week and right before we parted, I kinda started picking at him and we ended up arguing. I didn't even realize it at the time, but he actually called me out on it. He asked if i was deliberately picking at him so we would fight, so it made the parting easier. Like, what the actual fuck, right? How is a 19 year old that wise? . Turns out he was right. SO i had to go with to a techno club, then rode him while he suckled on my nipples til he came.

On the flipside, there's always a flipside. The husband's not happy with me. Again.

Someone, probably his buddy Jeff, saw me a few times out and about in HK last week with a guy (Cale and of course word has gotten back to the husband. Then this week, I'm also not staying at our place (to be fair, the place has been rented out to a friend of mine but we still have our master bedroom) so he has assumed I'm with someone. He knows I've got a...friend in Singapore that i meet up with when I'm here but I didn't inform him I was gonna be staying at his place. SO...granted, he has every right to be mad.

But, I'm also a little unhappy that he's not able to take time off work so we could be back in Bali this year end, which is what we normally do. So next week I'll be travelling back to Germany to spend the year end with him. THAT, is gonna be a....trying time. What a way to spend hte year end . But it's usually the case. When the relationship with my other partners is going well, the one with the husband is strained. It's the other way round too. Also, I'm aware of why. I'm not THAT thick. LOL. I guess it's also greed that I'm not letting go of one or two of them. Ah well...the end will eventually happen. I just don't want to rush it Silly, and hopeful, I know.

Oh! One last thing. I'm not sure if it's a French person thing, or....

So, I'm staying at Rene's this week. We went to the gym together and after, he had a few friends over last night and we had dinner. Post workout, I was horny as fuck. Add to that, seeing him all pumped up...i mean, there's only so much a girl can take, right? . So we get through dinner, had a few drinks, then as soon as we got back into the room, I jump all over him. Not gonna lie, the fact that he was trying to keep me quiet cos I knew that his friends could hear us outside, was a huge turn on. I was leading in the beginning, teasing him, sucking on his large balls then riding him hard. But by the time i came the second time, with him carrying me and fucking me standing up, I was spent. I knocked out after, and then he woke me up and fucked me again. By the time we both went to bed, I was properly wrecked. LOL. I only realized this morning that I did not even shower after the gym last night. LOL Yeah yeah...naaaasty.

But anyway. This morning, I woke up and Rene was already up. I hear him in the living room speaking with his friends. Two of them had spent the night. Now, I was butt naked in bed, his room door was opened, and I could see them walk up and down past the room as they were conversing with each other. NAturally they could see me too. SO i thought he must have left the door open. I got a little angry cos I was a little embarrassed. I mean, again, anal sex was included in our fun last night and the sheets were clearly stained. Again. Then i thought, fuck it. I'm too damn tired and sore to be dragged into this.

So i got up, went to the toilet, cleaned up, showered and walked out nude. I had my towel on my head, so...not completely nude. I went into the kitchen to check if there was coffee. Then Rene jumped, and grabbed another towel to cover me up, and was mad that I had come out nude. I'm like, really? You fucking left the bedroom door opened. So i got ushered back into the bedroom where we had a bit of a spat. So I threw on one of his tshirts, then came back out again. I mean, I guess it's symbolic cos the tshirt really also didn't cover much but...yeah. I thought that was weird. I don't get his logic, but i'm just gonna write that off as "lost in translation" LOL

Can someone explain that logic to me? Am I missing something?